It is confirmed. I have it.
It's been three whole weeks. I can't sleep a wink at night. I am now officially an expert in counting sheep that play in the grass and float from fence to fence. I am also becoming a veteran in calculating how much time is left before I could get my most awaited dream guy—Sandman—to say: "Yes, you may now kiss your blankie and go to sleep." I am starting to worry that one of these days I will see the little creatures with scissors that Stephen King wrote about in his novel Insomnia. Just imagine! Ugh, the horrors! DX
I tried everything: milk; reading novels, long boring reading materials, amazing facts, research articles; memorizing brainy stuffs (which, retention depended largely if I'm interested in it or not); exercise; watching TV (from action, drama, comedy, crime, history, horror, biography to news, anime, documentation, beauty and make up tutorial, and etc.); listening to music (kind of tried different genres already); gaming (oh the adrenalin, such a wrong move hahahaha but this is my favorite of all I tried); having a relaxing bath; lighting a scented candle; tea for zzzs; I could go on forever but you get the point already (ーvvー). Oh wait, have I mentioned M I L K? O.O *rolls eyes*
Deductions/ Conclusions/ Stipulations: Medical/Hospital people (including my Mom) said it must be from anxiety and/or stress since it started a week before a very stressful, mind exhausting, body clock reversing week (which for me, after years of going through the same, became normal already). That, or I'm not trying hard enough to sleep (Oh please!)
Solutions and other tips: Sleeping pills are, in general, no-no for me as it might be dangerous for a little girl with other health issuesーehem, me, ehem. *more coughing here* Ack! D: I'm a hopeless case *insert Say Something as background music* OTL
Now, here comes the alternatives (and my rants along with it):
(1) Avoid sleeping in the afternoon.
RANT: Okay, as much as I would like to follow this suggestion, it would be the death of me. I kid, that's obviously an exaggeration. Unfortunately, as of now, I can only woo Sandman by eight or nine in the morning. I would then (finally!!!) sleep without interruption which continues up until, say, two in the afternoon?
I would then proceed with my everyday activities (my programmed 'life') and arrive home by nine-thirty to ten in the evening. I eat dinner and start the wooing battleーsometimes with new strategiesーwith Sandman. The cycle, a circle. I get dizzy but not drowsy.
(2) Trick your brain by making your bedroom a place for sleep and nothing but sleep.
RANT: Hah! Fat chance. I am living this boarding house/ apartment life for quite some time now in which I have to stuff most of my things in my bedroom. I have to make it a point that I leave my bedroom (oh my own little lair) less and only when necessary because I have to (always, alwaysーas they sayー) concentrate. The ultimate "no distractions allowed" environment/rule. So I study, dress up, craft, roll, think of evil ideas to rule the world and do many more peculiar and monstrous others (wait, what? /lol this is misleading! /slapsself) inside my little world. Good grief, I even stock food and water inside my room so I wouldn't have to go out if I need to eat and drink!
(3) Keep your room dark.
RANT: It IS dark! Dracula would even love to keep me company and stay here all day. Mr. Sun doesn't have the nerve to step inside my room. Oh, but it is well ventilated, in case you are wondering. I can breathe and don't swim in my own sweat. I am also getting enough sunlight (hey, I do go out!). Actually, I'm inflicting more than enough damage to my already chocolate-y skin since I'm currently staying in the less shaded part of the city. Ugh the heat! But that's a different story to rant about.
(4) You're not taking vitamins and drinking hot milk enough.
RANT: Oh c'mon! I tried those! Not working! I feel tortured from swallowing large vitamins and medications (small creature problems which I don't know if anyone else is experiencing). And boy, my skin is suffering from all the milk. Gah!
(5) Tire yourself.
RANT: Trust me, I am always tired. I anticipate to savour every ounce of sleep (and food) I can get. My favorite things to do are sleeping, eating, playing games and reading (can I add stalking my crush as well? Oh yes, I'm creepy like that. Thank you for the compliment). Along with making my family happy, I am contented if I get to do those things. I am blessed to be given plenty of things to enjoy as bonuses in life. But I still need my sleep :'( huuu.
RANT: Trust me, I am always tired. I anticipate to savour every ounce of sleep (and food) I can get. My favorite things to do are sleeping, eating, playing games and reading (can I add stalking my crush as well? Oh yes, I'm creepy like that. Thank you for the compliment). Along with making my family happy, I am contented if I get to do those things. I am blessed to be given plenty of things to enjoy as bonuses in life. But I still need my sleep :'( huuu.
People out there please help me! D: "Hashtag" desperate. Haha! I'll do whatever you want if your suggestion proved to be an effective cure for me, marriage includedーif you're a guy (goodluck bearing with the likes of me, though: cheeky, selfish, little-girl-structured and all-out crazy). Ah, I have already said too much than necessary. Well, then I'm off to see if Sandman would pity me.
